perseus "i'm a prostitute of feelings" jackson (
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[ Percy likes to think he's open book. a pretty forthcoming guy. he's reliable. for the gods' sake, his fatal flaw is personal loyalty. the only reason he lies is to protect himself or his friends and that's the bottom line. but he can't help holding his breath as he passes the honesty signs in the halls. it starts getting ridiculous. he shields his eyes as he passes, says la la la louder and louder as he jogs down the stairs to get out of the building, away from that word, until he can't hold back anymore. sooner or later, Wonderland's magic digs its claws into everyone. ]
I've been thinking lately about how unpredictable this place is with who comes and goes. [ he remembers Leo vanishing beneath their noses and the crushing guilt - nobody had thought it could happen to them - and Lena, Caroline, and the few other friends he's made in Wonderland and lost. it's been brought to the forefront of his mind by Nico and it keeps lingering. ] There are people who have been here for years and there are people that show up here for a few days that we never see again, and there are others that just seem to be able to keep coming back. And until it happens to you, nobody can tell which one you are. In the mean time, I don't know, I guess it's... [ what's he trying to say? ] We let it become normal.
We don't want to feel it anymore.
Why is that? I mean, why is that okay?
[ he doesn't know why he's so heated about this. ]
If anything, it should remind us of what's important. [ he means who. ] I'm just saying— [ he looks off screen, confused and drawn out of his thought process by the the sound of a piano playing and the sound of someone strumming a guitar when there isn't anyone around him.before he knows it, he's humming, and his knee is jumping and he's really feeling this music for some reason and oh gods, it's happening! if ever there was a moment for zeus to strike him down with lightning, this is it. ]
Feelings uninvited, unable to hide it. [ he's in his own bedroom now and he crosses the room to a photograph in a frame lined with seashells to get right up in the camera. ] Steer clear of this mess, it's best if I don't see your face.
[ going to flip that photo over now. ]
Cause every time you're near me,
My knees start this shaking,
You're just way too charming with that look upon your face.
[ he's not the worst singer in the world but he's not rockstar material either. not that it seems to bother him right now. he miraculously becomes a master of walking and holding his device, still recording, as he walks out of his bedroom. he walks a few doors down, disturbingly close to the bedroom of a particular son of hades. ]
Cause on a whiiiim, I might just kiss you, out of nowhere I might just tell you. [ he raises his hand to knock and doesn't follow through. the one shot that is caught over his shoulder is the room number 007. ] I should go before I come undone.
I gotta walk away, or the three of us might have issues,
Stay away, but I might miss you,
Why is this song better left unsung?
Better left unsung.
[ going to put as much distance between himself and that door as he can, until he leans back against a wall and sinks to the hallway floor, looking into the camera only after he's seated. he sits cross-legged and looks every bit as young as he is. ]
What if I had told you?
Maybe not so bad if I do,
Tell me what would happen,
Happen if I did.
[ suddenly more frustrated: ] This all seems so silly, I never hide my feelings. What's so wrong with it? Maybe I might be just onto something.
Cause on a whiiiim, I might just kiss you,
out of nowhere I might just tell you.
I should go before I come undone.
I gotta walk away, or the three of us might have issues,
Stay away, but I might miss you,
Why is this song better left unsung?
Better left unsung.
[ and as the music fades out, there is a clear and distinct image of Percy Jackson completely and totally embarrassed before he drops his phone and the video cuts out. ]
I've been thinking lately about how unpredictable this place is with who comes and goes. [ he remembers Leo vanishing beneath their noses and the crushing guilt - nobody had thought it could happen to them - and Lena, Caroline, and the few other friends he's made in Wonderland and lost. it's been brought to the forefront of his mind by Nico and it keeps lingering. ] There are people who have been here for years and there are people that show up here for a few days that we never see again, and there are others that just seem to be able to keep coming back. And until it happens to you, nobody can tell which one you are. In the mean time, I don't know, I guess it's... [ what's he trying to say? ] We let it become normal.
We don't want to feel it anymore.
Why is that? I mean, why is that okay?
[ he doesn't know why he's so heated about this. ]
If anything, it should remind us of what's important. [ he means who. ] I'm just saying— [ he looks off screen, confused and drawn out of his thought process by the the sound of a piano playing and the sound of someone strumming a guitar when there isn't anyone around him.before he knows it, he's humming, and his knee is jumping and he's really feeling this music for some reason and oh gods, it's happening! if ever there was a moment for zeus to strike him down with lightning, this is it. ]
Feelings uninvited, unable to hide it. [ he's in his own bedroom now and he crosses the room to a photograph in a frame lined with seashells to get right up in the camera. ] Steer clear of this mess, it's best if I don't see your face.
[ going to flip that photo over now. ]
Cause every time you're near me,
My knees start this shaking,
You're just way too charming with that look upon your face.
[ he's not the worst singer in the world but he's not rockstar material either. not that it seems to bother him right now. he miraculously becomes a master of walking and holding his device, still recording, as he walks out of his bedroom. he walks a few doors down, disturbingly close to the bedroom of a particular son of hades. ]
Cause on a whiiiim, I might just kiss you, out of nowhere I might just tell you. [ he raises his hand to knock and doesn't follow through. the one shot that is caught over his shoulder is the room number 007. ] I should go before I come undone.
I gotta walk away, or the three of us might have issues,
Stay away, but I might miss you,
Why is this song better left unsung?
Better left unsung.
[ going to put as much distance between himself and that door as he can, until he leans back against a wall and sinks to the hallway floor, looking into the camera only after he's seated. he sits cross-legged and looks every bit as young as he is. ]
What if I had told you?
Maybe not so bad if I do,
Tell me what would happen,
Happen if I did.
[ suddenly more frustrated: ] This all seems so silly, I never hide my feelings. What's so wrong with it? Maybe I might be just onto something.
Cause on a whiiiim, I might just kiss you,
out of nowhere I might just tell you.
I should go before I come undone.
I gotta walk away, or the three of us might have issues,
Stay away, but I might miss you,
Why is this song better left unsung?
Better left unsung.
[ and as the music fades out, there is a clear and distinct image of Percy Jackson completely and totally embarrassed before he drops his phone and the video cuts out. ]
video;
[ a little shocked, but mostly just- really defensive about something. SO SHE'S GONNA SING ABOUT IT. and maybe it's supposed to be sung from someone trying to get it through to another person that she likes him, but no, this is all coming out kind of mad. or, well, frustrated. defensive, yeah. ]
Questions for questions
I've got a question-
Would you ever dance with me like that?
Screw all the rest
And forget the rules
Like all the girls and boys in my school
Questions for questions
I've got a question:
Would you ever dance with me like that?
[ maybe the song is springing up from the high school event that happened, that had them all acting different. like they were totally different people. different families, different lives. but the one thing she remembers is how messed up Annabeth was about the whole thing, how they sat in her room and just talked for forever because what else could she do? welllll, apparently this time she wasn't going to avoid confronting Percy about it. using a song that's a little misleading, but the next line is sung with a pretty okay, but listen this is the point tone ]
I said to this end, "don't hurt your best friend".
[ and she's clearly not talking about herself anymore ]
video;
the last thing he wants is to sing some more but remember: Wonderland hates him and is cackling somewhere with Hera because heck yes, it is an entity. ]
Some have their Bibles, and some go to church.
Well I found my heaven inside of her.
We all need something to believe,
Gotta find our destiny.
I've got her and she's got me.
I see her when I close my eyes,
She's my only god in life.
Never gonna say goodbye.
[ that's it, though, isn't it? the rest of the secret. it isn't just that he has feelings for Nico. it isn't that he's forgetting about Annabeth and moving on. Percy cares about them both. he doesn't want to see either one of them hurt. he wants to cut himself in half so they can both be happy; wants to be the one that gets to make them smile, and that's why he feels so awful. ]
video;
Well, forever may be
More time than anyone can offer
But all my time is spent in your corner
Heaven knows how much I love you-
[ yeah, Annabeth's her best friend. but Percy Jackson is one of her best friends, too. this doesn't change that. if anything, that's probably why it's making her react so strongly. ]
But if you think I can watch you play on her and understand it
Baby, you're taking far too much for granted
Don't mess up this good thing.
[ janet jackson? janet jackson. ]
video;
[ enough! enough singing, enough dancing, enough flashy lights and weird music blending together. he's had his fill of it. enough of Wonderland making him share things he's not positive of; that he's trying to work through. all he wants is to mean something to Nico, to be able to make a difference in his life and everything he learns only reminds him of those days they spent together. it builds on top of memories he's been trying to bury. does she think he isn't freaked out, that he isn't pissed off?
he's a lot of things.
nobody's angrier or more upset than he is. ]
I never wanted to share this in front of everyone. I was hoping— [ gods, Annabeth and Nico can see this ] I was hoping I wouldn't have to and everything would go back to normal, but it's a little late for that. It's out there.
video;
[ oh, she's mad. just super mad at Percy because this isn't- this wasn't in the cards. oracle jokes aside, she couldn't have predicted this, and she's mad ( super mad!! ) because maybe if she had seen this coming, she would've been able to help more. help Percy, or Annabeth, or- something! anything! instead she's just really shocked and confused and really worried about Annabeth and maybe a little worried about Nico too yes absolutely and okay, no, she's not mad. she's all those other things! and- ]
You have something perfect, something that some people never, ever get to have, and you're-
[ nope, nooope let's not dig too deep into that, because she really doesn't want to sing anymore either ]
It just seems really selfish to me, Percy. Which is why this is so- so, because you're not a selfish person at all, but this is selfish, it is, it's selfish and it's crazy and I almost wish I didn't hear it, and I'm going to stop talking to you before it turns into another stupid song about how mad I am. [ mad isn't accurate, but that's okay. it's easier than trying to explain what she really is feeling. ] I'm- yeah, I.
Bye.
[ click ]
video;
they could ignore it, get through it, and move on.
like all of their other battles. ]
Rachel- [ no, wait! ]