perseus "i'm a prostitute of feelings" jackson (
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[ Percy likes to think he's open book. a pretty forthcoming guy. he's reliable. for the gods' sake, his fatal flaw is personal loyalty. the only reason he lies is to protect himself or his friends and that's the bottom line. but he can't help holding his breath as he passes the honesty signs in the halls. it starts getting ridiculous. he shields his eyes as he passes, says la la la louder and louder as he jogs down the stairs to get out of the building, away from that word, until he can't hold back anymore. sooner or later, Wonderland's magic digs its claws into everyone. ]
I've been thinking lately about how unpredictable this place is with who comes and goes. [ he remembers Leo vanishing beneath their noses and the crushing guilt - nobody had thought it could happen to them - and Lena, Caroline, and the few other friends he's made in Wonderland and lost. it's been brought to the forefront of his mind by Nico and it keeps lingering. ] There are people who have been here for years and there are people that show up here for a few days that we never see again, and there are others that just seem to be able to keep coming back. And until it happens to you, nobody can tell which one you are. In the mean time, I don't know, I guess it's... [ what's he trying to say? ] We let it become normal.
We don't want to feel it anymore.
Why is that? I mean, why is that okay?
[ he doesn't know why he's so heated about this. ]
If anything, it should remind us of what's important. [ he means who. ] I'm just saying— [ he looks off screen, confused and drawn out of his thought process by the the sound of a piano playing and the sound of someone strumming a guitar when there isn't anyone around him.before he knows it, he's humming, and his knee is jumping and he's really feeling this music for some reason and oh gods, it's happening! if ever there was a moment for zeus to strike him down with lightning, this is it. ]
Feelings uninvited, unable to hide it. [ he's in his own bedroom now and he crosses the room to a photograph in a frame lined with seashells to get right up in the camera. ] Steer clear of this mess, it's best if I don't see your face.
[ going to flip that photo over now. ]
Cause every time you're near me,
My knees start this shaking,
You're just way too charming with that look upon your face.
[ he's not the worst singer in the world but he's not rockstar material either. not that it seems to bother him right now. he miraculously becomes a master of walking and holding his device, still recording, as he walks out of his bedroom. he walks a few doors down, disturbingly close to the bedroom of a particular son of hades. ]
Cause on a whiiiim, I might just kiss you, out of nowhere I might just tell you. [ he raises his hand to knock and doesn't follow through. the one shot that is caught over his shoulder is the room number 007. ] I should go before I come undone.
I gotta walk away, or the three of us might have issues,
Stay away, but I might miss you,
Why is this song better left unsung?
Better left unsung.
[ going to put as much distance between himself and that door as he can, until he leans back against a wall and sinks to the hallway floor, looking into the camera only after he's seated. he sits cross-legged and looks every bit as young as he is. ]
What if I had told you?
Maybe not so bad if I do,
Tell me what would happen,
Happen if I did.
[ suddenly more frustrated: ] This all seems so silly, I never hide my feelings. What's so wrong with it? Maybe I might be just onto something.
Cause on a whiiiim, I might just kiss you,
out of nowhere I might just tell you.
I should go before I come undone.
I gotta walk away, or the three of us might have issues,
Stay away, but I might miss you,
Why is this song better left unsung?
Better left unsung.
[ and as the music fades out, there is a clear and distinct image of Percy Jackson completely and totally embarrassed before he drops his phone and the video cuts out. ]
I've been thinking lately about how unpredictable this place is with who comes and goes. [ he remembers Leo vanishing beneath their noses and the crushing guilt - nobody had thought it could happen to them - and Lena, Caroline, and the few other friends he's made in Wonderland and lost. it's been brought to the forefront of his mind by Nico and it keeps lingering. ] There are people who have been here for years and there are people that show up here for a few days that we never see again, and there are others that just seem to be able to keep coming back. And until it happens to you, nobody can tell which one you are. In the mean time, I don't know, I guess it's... [ what's he trying to say? ] We let it become normal.
We don't want to feel it anymore.
Why is that? I mean, why is that okay?
[ he doesn't know why he's so heated about this. ]
If anything, it should remind us of what's important. [ he means who. ] I'm just saying— [ he looks off screen, confused and drawn out of his thought process by the the sound of a piano playing and the sound of someone strumming a guitar when there isn't anyone around him.before he knows it, he's humming, and his knee is jumping and he's really feeling this music for some reason and oh gods, it's happening! if ever there was a moment for zeus to strike him down with lightning, this is it. ]
Feelings uninvited, unable to hide it. [ he's in his own bedroom now and he crosses the room to a photograph in a frame lined with seashells to get right up in the camera. ] Steer clear of this mess, it's best if I don't see your face.
[ going to flip that photo over now. ]
Cause every time you're near me,
My knees start this shaking,
You're just way too charming with that look upon your face.
[ he's not the worst singer in the world but he's not rockstar material either. not that it seems to bother him right now. he miraculously becomes a master of walking and holding his device, still recording, as he walks out of his bedroom. he walks a few doors down, disturbingly close to the bedroom of a particular son of hades. ]
Cause on a whiiiim, I might just kiss you, out of nowhere I might just tell you. [ he raises his hand to knock and doesn't follow through. the one shot that is caught over his shoulder is the room number 007. ] I should go before I come undone.
I gotta walk away, or the three of us might have issues,
Stay away, but I might miss you,
Why is this song better left unsung?
Better left unsung.
[ going to put as much distance between himself and that door as he can, until he leans back against a wall and sinks to the hallway floor, looking into the camera only after he's seated. he sits cross-legged and looks every bit as young as he is. ]
What if I had told you?
Maybe not so bad if I do,
Tell me what would happen,
Happen if I did.
[ suddenly more frustrated: ] This all seems so silly, I never hide my feelings. What's so wrong with it? Maybe I might be just onto something.
Cause on a whiiiim, I might just kiss you,
out of nowhere I might just tell you.
I should go before I come undone.
I gotta walk away, or the three of us might have issues,
Stay away, but I might miss you,
Why is this song better left unsung?
Better left unsung.
[ and as the music fades out, there is a clear and distinct image of Percy Jackson completely and totally embarrassed before he drops his phone and the video cuts out. ]
video;
[There's a long pause as Frank tries to come up with something a little more eloquent than 'woah' and 'what in the Tartarus'.]
Nico? [Yeah that's... all he could come up with sorry.]
text;
[ he does know. he doesn't know how to explain it. ]
text;
dude we are honest when we sing we cant lie
like it happened to me too so i know
i think its the whole point of this event
are you going to kiss nico on a whim???'
text;
i don't know
no
i'm not going to kiss anyone on a whim
except my girlfriend
Re: text;
oh man annabeth oh man seriously percy you broadcasted this you cant pretend it didnt happen you have to figure out what it means
text;
i'm working on it
what am i supposed to tell everyone?
i love Annabeth
[ but... ]
text;
[Sorry Percy, that was pretty loud.]
is this because of that event?
text;
it had to be
i've always cared about Nico
but not like this
[ please don't judge him. ]
you probably think i'm a freak
for having feelings for two people
text;
like you are the first person ever to have feelings for two people
[Like how Hazel loved two people. She just... lost one of them in the way.]
but you gotta sort it out
figure out what youre gonna do
for you and for them both
text;
[ without wanting to hurt either one of them. ]
what can i do?
i don't want to hurt Annabeth or Nico any more than i already have
Re: text;
woman has cute man who likes her
but other cute man??? also likes her???
how will she choose?!?!
idk man grandma always thought they were horrible
[Frank's helping so much rn]
i think as long as youre honest they will understand
but dont try to please everyone okay?
[Mars told him, forever ago, that Percy's fatal flaw was his inability to let go. Maybe this is the same, maybe he can't let go of either of them.]
text;
but Annabeth isn't a cute man
[ frank, this example sucks. ]
neither one of them is some unimportant person in a story i can write off
because i chose someone else
[ because obviously, he's going to choose Annabeth. they're together until the end of time or one of them dies, whatever comes first. ]
it's not that easy
text;
The next text also takes a little longer. Frank wants to give him good advice but he also doesn't want to tell Percy what to do... just be there.]
then maybe thats your answer
percy when juno erased your memories you still remembered annabeth
your love for her is one of the biggest love stories ive ever seen
if you really cant choose between her and someone else then you must really love that someone else too
text;
it's not about choosing, frank
i don't know how to explain it
that's like asking me to close my eyes and start singling my friends out
by putting them in order of who i care about least to most
and i don't think that way
i'd do anything for any one of you
[ Annabeth is the greatest love of his life. his true love. he would have said his one and only a couple months ago, a day ago, now with this song out in the open and the truth straightened out for all to see, he can't. ]
this is seriously screwed up
ext;
you cant choose and thats your answer
becasue you love them both
[And also Frank's own answer. Mars was right, Percy's unwillingness to give up and willingly let people he cares about get hurt is going to be the end of him. But what is Frank supposed to do?
Plus Mars sleeps with Hephaestus's wife so what the heck why is he taking his advice, go away dad.]
but what are your options?
you break annabeths heart
or nicos
or both
no subject
doesn't make it the right answer for either of them
[ Hazel's right. there's no such thing as a threeway relationship. three people can't date each other because someone's always going to get hurt or left out. he can't ask either one of them to be okay with him loving them both. ]
how about none?
Nico's never going to speak to me again
so i think he already made the call for me
and Annabeth will come to me when she's ready to
[ he doesn't blame them. ]
no subject
i dont know percy i want to help but
i don't know how
no subject
grudges
if he makes up his mind about not wanting to see me, then he's going to stick to it
i mean, he's a great guy
but i'm asking for a lot
[ Nico's always fought the hardest against his flaws and Percy knows that; believes in him, but not in this. doesn't expect him to be stronger than he has to be to survive. forgiveness and acceptance ( like with Annabeth ) only seems like a pipe dream from where he's standing on his side of the towering walls they've put up. ]
it's okay
i don't expect you to be able to fix this
not when i haven't figured out how to do that myself yet
i can't rely on someone else to do it for me anyway
just.. look after them both for me, okay?
no subject
i promise
[Because what else can he do about it? He's right, and they both know it. Frank was never one for denial and he isn't going to start now. But Percy deserves his happy ending so much he wishes he had something to lash out, something to blame.]