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[ When the feed starts up, Jessica's sitting there with her lips pursed like she's sucking on a lemon drop. She had a willing person. She'd done this before. Badly one of those times, but--well, whatever! She had a plan this time so potential death wouldn't happen again.

She clears her throat. She'd had plenty of time to rehearse this and get used to being able to send videos instantly--Youtube was still a baby in her time, okay--so here goes! ]

Hey, Mah-nato? Mee-nato? God, I hope I'm sayin' your name right. Uh, anyway. I know you been through some crazy shit, but I'm 'bout ready for some blood, if you don't mind.

[ She breathes out. He was so nice, so she was sure it'd be okay to ask, even if the timing was shit. But with all that fuckery on Monday, she felt like she needed it. ]

Lemme know when's good for you? 'Kay, bye.

[ After a few seconds of awkward silence, she makes a soft "oh!" sound before she remembers to shut the feed off. Well, that was easier than she thought it'd be!

Too bad she didn't realize her private message was far from private. Maaaaybe she should've played around with her device more. ]

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Sure. You do that.

[Because hungry and embarrassed, he's betting that does great things for her time. Never seemed to for Richie, which might make him realize he's about treating her like he did his brother in those first days.

Like crappy and not helping, but not realize how cruel it is.]

Bee. Dee. Ese. Emm. Bondage. Masochism and shit. They have clubs for it so people can get their rocks off to pain and shit. I bet you went into one, all leather and grr and shit and they would pay you to bite them. Just saying.

What the fuck kind of weird shit are you into?!

[ Like, it's cool that he thinks she could pull off something fucked up like that, since she constantly feels like the most she can ever attract is a fly...but Jesus Christ!

She's beginning to wonder if that sort of thing went on at the vampire bar she'd been to at home. ]

...You really think I could do that, though?

[ Apparently she can't ignore the backhanded "compliment" as well as she thought she could. ]

Mostly bank robbery and grand heists, but that doesn't mean I haven't had a few experiences.

[Which is being truly honest, so there's that.

He smirks though at her, nodding.]

A dangerous woman that can bring them pain? You'd make a fortune. Not my type, but trust me, I know the type.

[ She raises an eyebrow but doesn't comment on his activities. Maybe she's not the only fucked up one around here. ]

There actually a nice guy in there under all the mean shit? Color me impressed. [ She snickers a bit. ] It's sweet that you even think I'm dangerous.

[ Because she kind of was. But that's not important!! It only counts if it's intentional! ]

'Cause, like, I'm actually not!

[He makes a face, but he knows it's true. Even as he continues to deny it. Even to himself sometimes.]

You don't have to be that way. You just have to be good at faking it. Don't tell me you're a bad liar.

Pff. I can be a good liar when I wanna be.

[ She pushes her hair back and shrugs. ] But honestly? I still got no clue who I am. Kinda hard to figure it out when I can't control half of what I do, and hell if I even knew anything when I was human. So maybe you could start cuttin' me a lil slack?

[Seth can't help but smile then.]

You may not believe but this is the slack version. Sure though, I'll see what I can do.

I'll say this though. This isn't home. You won't remember it. Be whoever you want to be here. Who is going to say it's wrong?

Somehow? I ain't surprised. But I'll take what I can get.

[ She sinks into a silence after his next few statements. They put a troubled frown on her face. Knowing this is all temporary in the grand scheme of things keeps slipping her mind, and that really bugs her. Already she'd learned so much here, and she'd love to take so much of that knowledge home! Who's to say if she'd continue to grow like she'd been if she were back in Bon Temps?

Jessica presses her lips together, contemplating how to word what she wants to ask. ]

What if what I like is bein' dangerous? Not killin' anyone dangerous, [ Because she feels like she needs to reiterate that! ] but just...bein' a way cool vampire dangerous. Not everybody's gonna be okay with that.

[God but it's hard talking to her about this. About vampires and embracing it and being happy about being like that. It's hard for a man whose live was ruined by them and then he took to hunting them.

Except like he tells her, they aren't the same people there that they were there. They are whoever they want to be here.]

Why do you care? If someone like me is telling you to do it, why would you care what everyone else thinks?

[ Jessica actually finds herself speechless. Why does she care? The consternation is apparent on her face. ]

I-I guess I get all caught up on it 'cause I spent all my old life scared to be who I wanted to be. Now that I can? Shit. I dunno what to do with myself.

[ And of course there was Hoyt and constantly worrying what he thought of her and what his mom thought of her. No wonder she was even more fucked up. ]

Um, thanks. You kinda woke me up there.

You're welcome then. Unless, you know, if you plan to be a killer but I don't see it in you. See it more in me than you.

[Because he has, by choice if he's honest. It was that or die, and he chose not to die but that meant a marshal or two had to.]

Figure out who you are, Vlad. That's the one thing this place truly offers you. Well that and every wardrobe you could ever want.

[ She'd almost think he'd already had a change of heart about her, but then he's dropping the weird ass names again. Jesus Christ.

But maybe it's like he said. She shouldn't give a fuck about what anyone thinks, including him. ]

I like my people to stay livin', thank you very much. So unless some event makes me go nuts, yeah, there ain't a killer in me.

Think I'll take your advice, though. Maybe'll even ask you for some 'bout fashion. Possibilities are endless, right?

[ And maybe she could someday get to the bottom of why he was such a trigger-happy asshole, but that'd be another time. ]

Guess you can be the shitty older brother I never had.

Events don't count. Not against anyone, no matter how they started.

[And that he truly believes, and not just because an event made him a killer of someone he truly cares about.

He chuckles at that.]

Oh so many different possibilities, but I can help with fashion. That and strategies.

And probably never wanted. Trust me, I know brothers are a pain, and I plan to live up to that.

[ Jessica laughs. Who'd've thunk the first asshole she met in Wonderland would turn out to be a nice asshole?

She'll just have to be "nice" in return. ]

I gotta make up for bein' a shitty big sister somehow. I'll appreciate the help.

[ She tilts her head and gives an exaggerated smile. And just for the cherry on top, she momentarily pops out her fangs, since she knows he just loooves those. ]

For now, though? I'm gonna go crawl in a hole and die again instead of dealin' with all these other people, so I'll talk to you later, bro.

[Later he's going to ask her about that and her little sister, but he suspects for at least one of them that means a better day and probably some alcohol.

Okay so the last is for him.

Until then... He rolls his eyes, flipping her off cheerful as he reaches to cut off the feed.]

Dying just means they bring you back. Not worth it. Later.

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